cant you see it?

cant you see that when i say im ok with it im actually not?
cant you see that i still am trying to make things work?
cant you see that all this while i am and will continue to like you?
cant you be a little sensitve and open your eyes?
cant you see that all i want is to be with you?
those are the signs that i am trying to send you.
but nooo you dun realize that maybe its not meant for me?
love and me?well they just dun go well
hmm i suck

this video

what about now?

for whatever it is,the anslies in me the ans to all of my qns.wat isit in me that has everyone running?
you noe wat?
one slight little gesture would really make all the diff.
wat have i got to do?i have tried and tried but none seem to work.there is just something bout her that makes me feel diff.wat isit?some may think that im just being childish.but its for me to decide that.ive seen many couples.then a thrust of despair punched me hard in the face telling me that im alone.
why isit that way?
why?why?

hmm

my heart was taken by you broken by you and now it is in pieces because of you...okok a wise man once told me looks does not always matter its wats inside that counts ok old dude get updated looks matter now in every fucking single thing looks is wat everybody see now.its the inside that counts?hah yeah rite.hah every girl wants to be with a handsome dude.
ouh yah talking bout dudes ive been reading the msgs and thought to myself what exactly are you trying to say?ouh watev
in a brighter note i suck im sure lots of ppl will agree.but wat the hell?wat have i got to lose anyhoohow?everything that ive been fighting for that ive been striving for all have gave me the thumbs down.ouh watever.well ppl lets go streaking wat have we got to lose?at the most we get caught ouh and selamat hari raya hahah.lately ive been in the hari raya mood.ok fuck i noe its like three weeks away but let me have some fun lah.typical idiotic judgemental ppl hah.why do ppl like this even exist on this earth hmph.
okok till now chiao

smack

maybe its just me
ok update i did tell her and really i have been losing lotsa sleep just thinking trying to figure things out
hmm maybe im just too fucked up for anybody
fuck this shit lah i duno why every single thing i do always goes wrong wat isit with me that everyone hates?
fuck just tell me already.dun be some fucking hypocrites talking behind me and thing that i duno well news falsh ppl i have been hearing things and not from very nice smelling mouths
the foul smell of those mouths make me wanna puke
im sorie if im soo fucked up rite now but yeah thats wat i feel.i just got a wake up call rite smack in the face.those words are sharper than the sharpest blade.it cut through me like knife through butter
look im not blaming you or anything.like i said all you did was to be true and thats good real good.not being sarcastic.
im just blaming myself for being this way.im just blaming myself for my own existence in this world.
some way some how i feel that my existence is a burden to everyone on this planet
maybe i shud go to mars?
thats where man are from rite?
maybe thats where i shud go everyone of my kind would be there.
ouh then i have to be bisexual ouh just fuck it ill be wat i want when i want to be.
ill go where i want hwen i want to
and if youre asking when i update then you can go fuck yourself.cos as far as i noe it this blog is fucking mine not yours.
ouh and to you im not blaming you dun feel apologetic cos you did nothing wrong its your own freewill
no one can control that.
and to the world be a little nicer will you?